Caleb built this last night in his room with his legos. He had wanted to show me his work all morning but it wasn’t until we after we got word that he did… What a sweet prophetic picture, our family of 6 holding hands with the cross uniting us together, I stand amazed…
After 3 long years of battling, countless tears, nights awake – paralyzed by fear, and SO MANY prayers, IT IS OVER…and It has just began all at the same time. I am – fall on my face – humbled, grateful and in awe that God would grant us the privilege of loving our boy for forever. This is not our victory it is ALL HIS. He fought this battle and HE ALONE has won this day. Glory to God in the Highest!
This heart that beats within me today has changed. It is not the same heart that was inside me 3 years ago. Because this heart, has wrestled with God. I have, in the midnight hour, literally fought with Him. I have cried out in anguish, I have shaken my fists angry and I have bowed my head low in utter, all out, weary submission. And I can say without equivocation that HE IS GOOD, HE IS TO BE FEARED, AND HE IS MY FAITHFUL FATHER. I have known all along that this was in HIS hands, but that HIS hands LOVED US enough to let us fight in this battle with Him and that He has handed us the victory… there are no words.
It has without a doubt been the most scary, the hardest, the most trying 3 years of our life. Feeling hunted EVERY DAY, not knowing when the next attack would come, not knowing how long we would have to fight, having sadness hang over every happy moment. We have fought for JOY and many days it was illusive. We have had anger instead of love, we have struggled with fear instead of trust, BUT HE REMAINED FAITHFUL.
He has carried us, He has allowed our feet to don the battle field along side of Him, and He has used each of you to help hold up our arms when we had no strength left. WE ARE CHANGED. We are deepened. We have seen angles encircling over head and I have, in my own heart, heard His still small voice. Now I know, THAT IT. WAS. HIM.
It isn’t so far-fetched that angels came out of the sky singing “Glory to God in the Highest” or that a star led the wise men to the babe, because HE LOVES US and IS WITH US, in more ways than we will ever know.
And SO today, We raise OUR Ebenezer , like so many who have gone before and erected alters of remembrance and praise, so will we. We will mark this day not as men who have won a long fought battle, but as servants entrusted with the most precious of gifts. We bow and we worship because OUR GOD is FAITHFUL. And this day is OUR PROOF, OUR MIRACLE, OUR COME DOWN THE MOUNTAIN WITH OUR BOY IN OUR ARMS AND THE RAM ON THE ALTER…
And as we raise our Ebenezer we also lift up a petition of healing for the others involved in this battle. It is not lost in our hearts that anguish and loss is part of THIS DAY. With all our hearts we wish it could have been different and ask that HE BE WITH THE HURTING and bring healing to the captives and ultimately bring freedom to the chains that bind.
Here I raise my Ebenezer, Here by Thy great help I’ve come…
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Psalm 37:5-6
Innumerable Thanks and Love to each of you who have walked this road with us, THIS IS YOUR MIRACLE TOO!